Saturday 20th December 2008 (pp4379-80)

Brief written reflections as to whether I wanted to be with her, the day before she was to return.

Thursday 18th December - Friday 19th December 2008 (no pages written)

Snooker still on. She still away. Still happy to not write.

Wednesday 17th December 2008 (p4378)

I went to London for an Esio Trot gig at the Betsey Trotwood in London. Wrote the below entry in a café before the gig.

Tuesday 9th - Tuesday 16th December 2008 (no pages written)

All but given up here but wasn't really giving up because I felt I had written what I wanted to write. She went back to Iceland for a little while. I watched snooker, enjoyed the freedom.

Monday 8th December 2008 (pp4376-7)

I do vaguely remember writing this poem late at night on the sofa on which I was to sleep. It's meant to be about the girl with whom the island man is embroiled.

Sunday 7th December 2008 (no pages written)

I sit and try and remember these times, what I would have been doing on the 7th December 2008. It's an impossible task most of the time, so I try to remember something about that general time and it can be like staring into a dark house.

I used to do cryptic crosswords. I used to stare at them for hours rarely solving any clues, whilst she watched TV.

Saturday 6th December 2008 (p4375)

'Very busy and stressed and depressed at the moment.' That's sad. Maybe it would have helped to continue writing.